Monday, November 30, 2009

THANKSgiving

Settle in, this is gonna be a long one...

Tuesday night at about 10pm after getting home from class and getting some last minute work done, I sighed. I was looking forward to five days of no books, no schoolwork, no paperwork and lots of food, family, friends and football! Wednesday morning, I woke up around 7am with a plan to go to the gym, clean the house a bit and pack to leave for Pinehurst that afternoon. Of COURSE I checked facebook first. My Mom had posted a status about how her brother, my Uncle Mike, had gotten the call from the Hospital at the University of Pennsylvania (HUP) saying they were inspecting a heart that morning for him.



For those of you who don't know or don't remember, my Uncle Mike had an LVAD put in back in March (you can google it, but it short terms, it helps pump his heart) and he was placed on the heart transplant list in PA. Traditionally big deal aside, it was an even bigger deal, because they didn't think he could leave the state until he received the heart and we were planning on him being our officiant for the wedding in July...in North Carolina! Anywho, it all worked out and he came and it was wonderful

back to Wednesday. He had been number one on the transplant waiting list for about two months, if not more. I called Mom and Mamaw (in Mississippi) and started to prep travel plans, in case they got the call that the heart was in fact a match and the surgery would happen that day. At about 9:30am, I clicked book on the Southwest Airlines site for Mamaw and Grandaddy and Mom called to say she'd be here in Richmond to pick me up around 2. So we hopped in the car and headed north on 95 through DC and Baltimore on the day before Thanksgiving.



Obviously, we knew there would be traffic. Holmes gave us some alternate routes so we didn't have to go straight through the big cities and even with that help, it still took about 9 hours (including a stop for dinner and Wal-Mart to get waiting room snacks). Mom was on the phone with every person who has ever met Uncle Mike letting them know what was going on and that updates would follow. We are a blessed family, to have such a wonderful support system within and also in an extended fashion. Lori and Jamie and others all said they had prayer chains going all throughout their churches. People that have never met us!

The surgery was scheduled for 3:30 and somewhere around that time, Aunt Lisa tells us that they are doing a visual inspection of the heart. Apparently, there was still a possibility to not get a "green light". But we did anyways and he headed down to the OR around four, I think. At 5:59, the first incision was made. The HUP team told Aunt Lisa 4-6 hours. I read on the internet 4-12 hours.



Around 11pm, Mom and I crammed Mamaw, Grandaddy, ourselves and lots of luggage into the Matrix. It held everything, but not exactly comfortably. Fortunately the airport wasn't too far from the hospital. We got lost for the first and only time (an exit no longer existed, so it wasn't our fault). We made it to the hospital and up to the 5th floor SICU waiting room just in time and I mean three minutes before the surgeon walked down the hall to give an update. The heart was in and pumping. This was midnight. Six hours my uncle laid open on the table while surgeons and nurses traded hearts for him. They had another hour to go, getting him all sewn back up and such. At 1:07am, the screen in the waiting room flashed that he was being transferred to recovery. At around 2:30am, we got to go back and see him!

HUP has a hotel attached to it, so we took the grandparents and crashed for the night. Up early at 8ish, I decided to go for a run, because we weren't permitted to see Uncle Mike until later. I ran down a greenway along the river to the Philadelphia Art Museum, my own personal turkey trot. It was a great path and I was glad I thought to take my camera. There was a Thanksgiving/Christmas parade ending at the Art Museum around the time I ran past. I also happened upon the Hokies basketball team while running past the UPENN basketball arena.



Oh! Holmes headed down to Pinehurst the same time we left for Philly...so he was not with us. My in-laws are so wonderful and supportive to be understanding about me not coming like originally planned. I sure did miss them though!

After my run, we got to see Uncle Mike, he was propped up. Still had the breathing tube, so he couldn't talk to us, but he was definitely alert and aware, nodding and smiling as much as possible. It was amazing. This was not even 12 hours after a HEART TRANSPLANT! The doctors and nurses kept coming in with surprised looks on their faces saying "we don't see numbers like this on this floor" (this floor being the surgical ICU).



About 12, Mom and I went to pick up Christina, Uncle Mike's youngest daughter, who was able to get a flight from Mississippi as well. His older daughters decided to wait to make the trip so Aunt Lisa has support spread out during Uncle Mike's recovery. (Wendi leaves next week to go visit, his oldest, and I'm not sure about Brandi, her husband is in Iraq and she has a four year old, they are in Kansas, I hope they get to go soon). Uncle Mike's son, Josh is also in Iraq. But they got to talk on the phone before he went into surgery. When we got Christina back to the hospital, we did some more visiting, then remembered we needed to eat. The cafeteria had Thanksgiving Dinner!!! We all had turkey and dressing (even though we had to explain dressing is the same thing as stuffing, since the staff had no clue what we were asking for), sweet potatoes, rolls, green beans, mac and cheese and what they called pumpkin pie. The pie was rank. But it was still nice to have the tradition there on such a chaotic exciting day. Uncle Mike was already asking for Milky Ways and Diet Mtn Dews. Mamaw and I went back to the hotel to take a nap and sneak in some football watching. Then we visited some more that night with him. At this point, they took out his breathing tube and he was TALKING! The day after, not even 24 hours after, a heart transplant, he was sitting up and talking and joking around with us all!

Friday, the docs were already discussing replacing equipment with lighter loads and were continuing to wean him off the supportive meds and measures. Amazing! The staff at HUP is incredible. The overnighters on a holiday weekend and the Thursday staff were all smiles. No matter they were away from their families on that day, they were happy to be taking care of ours. It was so special (and humbling to be honest). Many of them remembered Mike and Lisa from the last time he was there, for the LVAD surgery. They are memorable for good reasons :) Lots of visiting in and out. Only supposed to be two people in the room with him at a time, but they were slightly lenient at times, and we all got to be there at once a few times.



I ran again, to the Liberty Bell this time. Pretty neat. That afternoon, the girls walked around the shops and such near HUP for a while and let Uncle Mike spend some time with his parents. Mom, Christina and I had dinner at a mexican place down the block. We brought some back to Aunt Lisa...I wouldn't have left if I were her either! Saturday morning, we went to visit Uncle Mike one last time, Mom decided since he was doing so well that we should get back on the road to avoid the Sunday after Thanksgiving travel rush. The drive home still took six hours, but both ways, it wasn't really a bother. We stopped in Richmond to spend the night (help break up the time on the road) and got up early to head down to Greensboro Sunday morning. While we were traveling on Saturday, HUP moved Uncle Mike into a patient room. Not even 72 hours after a heart transplant, he was out of the ICU. Talk about a blessing and a miracle!

Getting home Sunday made it possible for Neena and me to go with Kristin to pick up her wedding dress! We took pictures, but I won't be sharing them here ;) It was beautiful and it was fun to do wedding stuff again! Brian and Elea and Kristin came over to watch the second half of the Panthers game (waste of a football team, ugh) with Mom, Alan, Holmes and me. We had a great time. I haven't seen any of them since our wedding! I was so glad they came by. Then Holmes and I loaded up all our Christmas decorations (six large rubbermaid tubs worth) and hit the road back to VA. We made it home by 8 and the house was fully decorated by 9 (it's not a big house, hahah).



Now it's Monday morning and I have one week left of classes and one week of finals. Two more big assignments, end of the semester clinic paperwork, and three finals to go. I can do this.

Thanks to EVERYONE for all the prayers and good thoughts. It was an amazing Thanksgiving, that's for sure.

Friday, November 20, 2009

Interesting Follow-Up

Just a quick note...

one of the verses in the devotional I picked this morning says this
2 Corinthians 3:18
18 And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect (contemplate) the Lord's glory, are being transformed into his likeness with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.

If that doesn't describe meditation, I'm not sure what does...

Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert

So I've been listening to the book Eat Pray Love on my commutes to and from school. Its not what I expected at all, but I'm really enjoying it so far. I like listening to people that are clearly smarter than me sound real. If that doesn't make sense, you'll have to get the book. Anywho...

So the book isn't biblical, in fact, she claims not to claim any God and denies that there could be only way to Heaven, so we disagree on several points, but her methods are interesting. She practices yoga and some of what she shares about what she learned in India while studying, and I mean studying, yogic practic is kind of fascinating. I started doing yoga randomly at the Y about three years ago. I started for the fitness, but found the philosophy vaguely interesting. It's a lot of focus on your breath so that you are truly focusing on the current present, not the past and the future. Well, that's kind of biblical... There's some quiet your mind and focus on your body, not as physical, but as something that holds divinity. Well, that's kind of biblical... There's a LOT of discipline yourself, don't indulge, etc etc. Well, that's certainly biblical. Once a few years ago, I actually looked up Christian Meditation. The websites out there (at least three years ago) were creepy. But the idea has come back to me while listening to this book and hearing about her experiences with her god. My Jesus lives in me...so why can't the same practice be used for Christianity...

As I was saying yesterday, my current "time with God" is pretty minimal, if existent at all, so I think this might be my answer...

I have no idea how to start, or when I'd start, or if it's a whole load of crap. But I think I might try. If anyone has any experience with this, please PLEASE let me know!

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Coconut

Does anyone remember the fruits of the Spirit song from bible school?

The fruit of the Spirit's not a coconut
The fruit of the Spirit's not a coconut
If you wanna be a coconut you might as well hear it, you can't be a fruit of the Spirit.
For the fruits are : Love Joy Peace Patience Kindness Goodness Faithfulness Gentleness and Self Control

After you sang coconut each time, you knocked on your own head. It was silly 10 year old fun, but dang it if I haven't been acting like a coconut.


I haven't been spending any time in the Word lately and it takes about two weeks for it to "show" (to me anyways, probably earlier to others). I've never had an actual anxiety attack, so those of you that have experienced that, please forgive me for this analogy, but that's the best way I think I can describe. For no reason, all of a sudden, I'm overcome with emotion and almost crippling feelings, of the need to just crawl up in a fetal position. Like I said, it's not an actual attack, and so (fortunately) I'm able to shake my head and snap out of it, but the residual feelings linger and then my whole day is ruined. I start wondering why I feel like that, what's wrong with me? Well, nothing, well, a lot. What's wrong with me is that "this *me*" isn't the right *me*.

An old high school friend Erin, put a Joyce Meyer quote on her facebook status recently (which might have sparked all this in me) "If I don't spend time with God, I don't act right." You have to hear it in Joyce's voice, which is not exactly harsh, but its definitely to the point. Well, I haven't been acting right. So starting back to a morning devotional today, the verse was Galatians 5:22-26. About the fruits of the Spirit. I haven't been exemplifying ANY of those. And as much as I would love to try and knock them all out today, I'm human. So I'll pick one. I see my high school clients today. So I pick gentleness and patience. I already regret typing that. Have you ever prayed for patience? Oh, God loves this one. He L O V E S giving out opportunities to be patient. Today should be interesting. So please, if you are so inclined, pray for me today, to remember that I ASKED for it, and also pray for my supervisor, as she will have to witness these encounters. As for gentleness, if you've met me, gentleness isn't really how I roll. I think maybe I compare it too much to gracefulness, which is mega-lacking in my life, but either way...I picked two hard ones. (side note: I didn't put a whole lot of thought into them, just the first ones that came to the ole coconut).


another side note: A lot of times, I will consider this blog writing or the 2 minutes it takes me to read the devotional as my time with God. Although the book isn't necessarily biblical, Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert is showing me differently. Man, this blog could get long...I'll post this tomorrow...

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Non-Running Update

Other than that epic training fail...life is GOOD.

Michael has really recovered well from his surgery, the docs were really impressed. He's running again and if I had more time at home, we'd be playing tennis again! He's made it to a bunch of Hokie games...and we haven't missed a Panthers game yet. Finally found a non-sketchy place to watch the games. He's still playing bass with the worship band at Southside Church. The people there are so great. His other band, Stoke Row, is also doing well. They put some songs together in the studio one day a few weeks ago and had another show at a place in Powhatan. 35 of our friends and family came out to support him, it was really great.

School is going really great. Busy as usual, but still learning a ton. Amazingly, there's only the rest of this week, two days next week, a full week, then finals! We get an entire month off. I'm glad we'll be traveling otherwise, I know I'd get bored... We're headed to Mississippi for a week, hopefully Pinehurst for a few days, maybe Atlanta one day and fingers crossed to make it to Charlotte at least one night...

Fairly boring update, but there ya go!

Training Fail

I trained hard the first five months of 2009. I wanted to finish a marathon and place in my age group in a 5k. I did both. And then stopped training (you know, to get married and go honeymooning and move and take care of the hubs after surgery AND to save money on race fees). I only took two full weeks off (not consecutively either). I kept my mileage up, running at LEAST 15 miles a week, averaging probably 20 or 21. My long runs were not long...six mostly, with a few 8-10'ers in there every once in a while.

Then last week, Friday night I go spontaneous (extremely not like me) and drive down to the chaos that was the Suntrust Marathon Race Expo and register for the 8k the next morning. I run a 43:20. On a whim! and I had PLENTY of energy after the end, I was (and still am) sure I could have done better.

p.s. My name was in the paper, that's pretty cool. 39th in my age group (out of 362).


So this turns me cocky. And I enter this time into the Runner's World Smart Coach, which helped me train for the marathon (beat my goal) and the Autism 5k in June (beat my goal). During BOTH of those trainings, I think I had one major fail. I was supposed to run 6 800s at 7:31 or something loony like that. I only got through three or four. So I was feeling pretty confident about the prescribed tempo run for this morning...five miles with three at 8:21.

Wake up at 6:30 after eight hours of sleep. Get dressed for the 45 degree run. Eat one packet of oatmeal, one cup of coffee, forgot the water. Got distracted by schoolwork and laundry, didn't make it out the door until 8 when it was already up to 55 degrees (still in 45 degree gear). Easy peazy warm up mile around 9:50pace. Pick it up for mile two. Breathing just didn't fall into place. Kept going. 8:34 Mile 2 (FAAAAAAIL). Breathing all out of whack, can't catch it, what the crap, is that a SIDE STITCH? yeah, Mile 3 8:44 (FAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIL). and then? I walk. LAME LAME LAME. Yep, I walked about a quarter mile, got bored and started running (jogging?) again. Cut the entire run short by over a mile.

Now I have a decision to make.....the Frostbite 15K is in 10 weeks. The NC Half Marathon is in 18 weeks. Should I scrap this training and start training for the half the first week in January (12 weeks)?

Sigh.